Last weekend some of my friends came to visit in Stockholm, amazeballs! It was a good 30 hours with walks, coffee, crazy partying and so on. It’s so nice to see them, but also frustrating, ’cause I want to know so much about what’s going on with their lives, and it’s so much better to hear someone speak, and to be able to talk about little things and enjoy the atmosphere of a place with people, than just through digital communication. It’s still distant.
Meeting my friends in a place like this does bring up those home-sick feelings with it. It also immediately reminds me of why I’m here. To enjoy life, to start a career, to enjoy this city and to right some wrongs. It has been the toughest time not having everything handed to me on a golden platter and not having a thick support system there. Of course I have a support system, a very very good one, but more in the sense of not having your close ones physicallyclose by. There’s also tons of reflection on things from the past. We all have turbulent times in life, but I tend to close off a lot of it and focus on practical things in front of me instead of going through the thick of it and face the demons.
At the same time, it makes me realize how lucky and privileged I am to be in this position and I’m willing to work extremely hard to make it happen. And then once in a blue moon, due to the slow Dutch government I’m going to be home for a couple of days, in December to arrange my passport, which gives me the chance to see my family! People are what matters.